April 21, 2009
They Kept Me From the Pain
When I put up all those advocacy posts, it makes me feel somewhat better. But, it doesn't mean it's "business as usual" and I'm feeling fine.
Hardly slept at all last night. It's been several days in a row not sleeping well. Today, after an "extra" T session yesterday, I'm exhausted and can't seem to stop crying. I'd better pull myself together because I've promised to babysit my little toddler neighbor and take her to the park this afternoon. Hope that helps me feel better--just pray I have the energy. Safe hugs to all other survivors out there who are hurting.
Your in my thoughts...you will find the strength you come this far! Take care a survivor friend from Canada!
All I have to offer right now is some survivor solidarity. I'm in a similar place right now. You're in my thoughts.
GA: Thanks for stopping by. I do appreciate the solidarity and thoughts. ((((((((((GA))))))))))
I know you are not feeling fine but not sleeping affects us emotionally in a very profound way.
Try to sleep a little better.
I'm sure at least a little bit of the sadness will go away.
It's very stressful to cry.
At least for me. Sometimes I get really tired after one or two "crying sessions".
I hope you find peace. It takes time sometimes.
Have you ever tried any therapy?
You'll be on my prayers.
Mountainmama: That was helpful, thank you. I appreciate your thoughtful comment.
GA: Thanks for stopping back by. I DID enjoy my time at the park with the little cutie pie. Now I'm really bushed, though. Maybe I'll sleep tonight.
Rainbow: Thanks. You know, you're right. She DOES need me to know so I can heal. I know the hard work will pay off. It just seems such a long road sometimes.
But kind words from people who understand helps a lot. Thank you all for your thoughtful responses today.
EH: Hey, nice to "see" you. Thanks for those needed hugs.
JBR: You're so sweet to check back with that caring and blessing. I'm feeling a bit better today and finally got some sleep last night.
Toni: thanks for those wonderful prayers and hugs and I hope you get some sleep, too.
Mile 191: Thanks for your kind words. Welcome back.
i have been reading over many blogs that inspire me as a survivor in different ways, and urs is one of them...thanks for that too! one of these days, i'll put the link to my own survivor blog on my main one...shoot i have like 5 blogs on diffent things LOL
p.s. i'm gonna try to go and take a nap now. my daughter is finally taking one (she's sick and home from school today)
I know what days like those can be like, I remember them very well and the questions of why and the frustration of feeling like things will never change. Have you seen a change in therapy? Have you forgiven yourself for what happened? So often as survivors we beat ourselves up for not protecting ourselves. I often tell people to start by letting go of the shame and guilt and give yourself a break, embrace yourself and forgive the child you once were. Just a thought!
Hi, Superlagirl. Thanks for visiting and leaving a comment. I appreciate those thoughts, peace and strength wishes. I need 'em right now. ;)
I feel so angry when I come to your blog or sad.
I could not read the last post because I'm sad.
I will never forgive people who abuse children.
I was emotionally abused and it's already too damn hard.
I was physically restrained for 20 seconds - a story that is at my blog - and I felt terrible.
Take care sweetie.
I don't know if I'm saying the right things but that's the way I feel.
I will come over and read your story. You take care, too, sweetie Ana!
Hold on to that flicker of hope, my friend.
It will outshine the darkness!
In light and hope,
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