May 20, 2008
I'm Finally "In" My Body And Now It's Falling Apart!
*&*^%$##@*! I have skin cancer!
I had two "moles" removed about a week ago and just got the biopsy results. I'm way more upset about it than I thought I would be.
Boy, life sure is ironic, isn't it? The positive, upbeat post I was going to write was about pleasant surprises and thoughtful friends and peaceful, grounding connected-to-the-earth time spent gardening lately.
I've lived in Colorado almost ten years now. I love it here. One of the things I love the most is the sunshine. With spring finally here, I feel like a new person. I've been outside enjoying getting my hands in the soil and planting things. We get over 300 days of sunshine a year here.
Unfortunately, this has led to my skin cancer, most likely. A strange bump showed up about four years ago--that was five years into living in Colorado. At first I thought it was a wart. Then, I was convinced it was a new-to-show-up mole.
Turns out, it's a basal cell carcinoma. I've been crying some this morning, but I feel a bit better after googling the skin cancer type I have. I guess the recovery rate is excellent for the type of cancer I have and the type of surgery they are going to do on me. It's called The Mohs procedure, or Mohs Micrographic Surgery. They've got me scheduled for Wednesday, 5/28. Unfortunately, the full recovery rates they give are for early treatment. My "mole" was left on there for four years! Yikes! That's scary.
Also, unfortunately, this nasty bump is on my face--right next to my eye! (It's kinda between the corner of my eye and my nose.) Now I'm not a high maintenance sort of woman. I have a very easy wash-and-go hairstyle, am not really into fashion and I hardly ever wear makeup. (I do, however, wear sunscreen all the time.)
Of all the damn moles I have all over my body, this nasty cancer has to be right on my face. (The other one, which is not cancerous at all, was on my leg.) I guess I am actually that vain that this bothers me a lot. Also, I have a neighbor who has skin cancer and it's really bad and he's quite disfigured from it. He's in his 70's though. I'm not even 50 yet!
Aaaaccckkk! Between this and my recent diagnosis of Thoracic Outlet Syndrome, I feel like my body is falling apart! Hhhmmmmm....I'm not sure I like this "being in my body" stuff that is so new to me. Hey, say a prayer or two will ya? Thanks!
"Please heal the cancer on Marj's face..."
This would be a scary thing to contend with, I don't blame you for being shaken up.
Hang in there, Marj. We're all here for you!
you are definitely in our thoughts, heart and prayers! We are sorry for all you are going through but we know somehow you will persevere
peace and blessings
It's the melanoma's that can be fatal.
I've had 4 precancerous basal cells and 1 actual melanoma. My melanoma was square on the center of my nose.
I have a huge scar ..but I appear to be the only one who notices it. It was noticable for the first couple of months, but that's it.
I think the big thing is, that is in my line of vision ... the scar actually reflects light, so it bothers me a bit. Guess I could cover it with make up, just thought of that. LOL
The C word is scarier than all get out .... it's ok to freak out. It really is. Just know you're being prayed for while you're freaking out ... hugs.
oh, this is Pk from Pearls And Dreams ... I started a new blog and forgot to sign in under my real ID ...
I feel a bit better today after getting more info about the skin cancer and having the shock wear off a bit.
If you click on the link about the Mohs surgery, you can read a pretty good explanation of the treatment/procedure that I'm going to be experiencing a week from today.
I guess it's one of the best options for this type of thing.
Thanks for the prayers! And for what you wrote on my fridge. You're sweet! :)
So glad to "see" you again. Thanks for all the first-hand info. I really appreciate it. I do feel much calmer about the whole thing today. I'll have to get over and check out your new blog--cool! :) (((((PK)))))
Survivor: Thanks for the prayers. And thanks for visiting! It's always nice to meet another survivor (not that I'm glad we were victims--but I'm sure glad we're survivors!)
I will definitely add you to my prayer list and I'll be thinking of you on your surgery day and those following. Just imagine all of your cyber friends circled around you looking out for you cause that's where we'll be. Maybe that will offer some comfort.
I met a woman at a lunch recently that had the same type of skin cancer, also on her face. (Too many years in the sun). She had it removed and after it healed up, it did not leave a visible scar. She doesn't wear face make-up and you cannot see where it was removed.
I don't know if she used one of those scar reducer creams on it, but you can ask your doctor about that, and when it would be OK to start using one. They're available, OTC, at your local pharmacies.
Sending lots of positive energy and healing thoughts to you! (((Hugs))) MW
RR: Thanks for the info and prayers. I feel much better about the procedure. Now, I just need to convince my parts that we will be safe on Wednesday. I had a pretty bad trigger reaction the day I got the moles off for the biopsy. I'm supposed to hear from the Mohs doctor's secretary today about meeting him in person, seeing the room where the procedure will be done, etc. to help myself(ves) feel safe.
MW: so nice to "see" you again! I thought you weren't blogging right now. I'll have to go over and see what you're up to. Thanks so much for the healing energy, thoughts and hugs! :)
Barbara/Layla: Thanks for stopping by with your kind words. They are very reassuring to me.
Dr. Deb: Thanks for the vote of confidence. I'm sure you're right!
I request all to gather/ find more and better information about cancers and create blogs as well as blog posts to make us know further. You know many of us need better information. Even me too.
Have a nice day
You may be in your body, but your body is still storing the emotions...EFT will help you release them forever...
Do a serach! God Bless you!
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