September 17, 2009
Emotional & Technical Difficulties: Please Stand By
My computer is giving me fits again. Firefox is not working on it. I've got Internet Explorer working intermittently, but it...is...so...s-l-o-w! I've tried to just go down my links list and visit everybody, in case I can't do that for a while.
I'm really bummed about Polyvore, as that has been one of my life lines lately. With my slow connection, I haven't done as much over there for a while. The other day, I was trying to build a collage and parts of the page (the ones with the necessary buttons, for crying out loud) kept disappearing. Aarrgghhh!
I'm also reeling from this Fall Memory Maze I'm trying to navigate. The other day, I woke up so afraid, I couldn't get out of bed. It was so bad, I couldn't get any comfort going at all. It was all I could do to jump out quickly and grab the phone to call my husband. I asked him to come home and stay with me a while. The wonderful angel did! He brought me tea and sat on the edge of the bed for a while. I think I had a brief glimpse of what agoraphobics must go through. I told my husband, "I know it doesn't make any sense, but I feel like there are mean people out there (outside) who want to hurt me." He stayed with me while. I finally got dressed and my hubby stood there while I watered a few flowers. The fear eventually died down.
Barbed by Marj aka Thriver on Polyvore.com
This collage represents how I've been feeling often lately. Scattered, afraid...on the verge of becoming unraveled and completely hysterical. I'm doing extra therapy this week. I think I'm very close to something new and really big in the Autumn Memory Department.
Don't forget, everybody: The next Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse will be over at Paul's blog, Mind Parts. The deadline for submissions is Wednesday, September 23rd. He's only got a handful of submissions so far, so let's get those in! Here's the submission form. Would you please go around to blogs and remind each other? I may not be able to do it as I'd like with my computer woes. Thanks!
I'm really bummed about Polyvore, as that has been one of my life lines lately. With my slow connection, I haven't done as much over there for a while. The other day, I was trying to build a collage and parts of the page (the ones with the necessary buttons, for crying out loud) kept disappearing. Aarrgghhh!
I'm also reeling from this Fall Memory Maze I'm trying to navigate. The other day, I woke up so afraid, I couldn't get out of bed. It was so bad, I couldn't get any comfort going at all. It was all I could do to jump out quickly and grab the phone to call my husband. I asked him to come home and stay with me a while. The wonderful angel did! He brought me tea and sat on the edge of the bed for a while. I think I had a brief glimpse of what agoraphobics must go through. I told my husband, "I know it doesn't make any sense, but I feel like there are mean people out there (outside) who want to hurt me." He stayed with me while. I finally got dressed and my hubby stood there while I watered a few flowers. The fear eventually died down.
Barbed by Marj aka Thriver on Polyvore.com
This collage represents how I've been feeling often lately. Scattered, afraid...on the verge of becoming unraveled and completely hysterical. I'm doing extra therapy this week. I think I'm very close to something new and really big in the Autumn Memory Department.
Don't forget, everybody: The next Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse will be over at Paul's blog, Mind Parts. The deadline for submissions is Wednesday, September 23rd. He's only got a handful of submissions so far, so let's get those in! Here's the submission form. Would you please go around to blogs and remind each other? I may not be able to do it as I'd like with my computer woes. Thanks!
Labels: aftermath, alters, Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse, broken, collage, feelings, freeze response, memory work, therapy
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Might I suggest a few things.
1) use you disc clean up that you can find in your system tools,clean the c drive out of all the built up un-needed files.
2) go to www.ccleaner.com and download that program,it will belete all the temporary file that are clogging your computer.That may help get thing moving again.
3)run a maleware program.If you donot have one you can go to malwarebytes.org and down load the free program.all these steps help me.
1) use you disc clean up that you can find in your system tools,clean the c drive out of all the built up un-needed files.
2) go to www.ccleaner.com and download that program,it will belete all the temporary file that are clogging your computer.That may help get thing moving again.
3)run a maleware program.If you donot have one you can go to malwarebytes.org and down load the free program.all these steps help me.
Thanks, Mike! I know my husband has probably done #1, but not the other two. I will pass on your suggestions.
Glad you were able to post something dear one. Man, what a bummer. I hate it when my computer is too slow also, I just go crazy!
Dear one always thinking about ya. Blessings and hugs. ((((Marj))))
Dear one always thinking about ya. Blessings and hugs. ((((Marj))))
Marj,
Wow, I am sending you all my good energy thoughts and hugs for all of your pain and fear. That collage is so clear to me now. I know you will take care of her Marj.
xoxo
Vicki
Wow, I am sending you all my good energy thoughts and hugs for all of your pain and fear. That collage is so clear to me now. I know you will take care of her Marj.
xoxo
Vicki
new kid on this blog. the posts are real and some more kenyans should follow this blog.
www.twohoursbefore.blogspot.com
www.twohoursbefore.blogspot.com
I am so sorry you had a rough day, but it sounds like your husband was Prince Charming! You are a very lucky girl.
JBR: Yeah, we live in such an instant-gratification world. When a page takes 30 seconds to load, it seems like forever! ;) Thanks for those hugs and blessings and same back to you.
Vicki: I'm trying to best to take care of that little girl inside. You take care of little Vicki, too. And I appreciate those good hugs and energy thoughts, too!
Two Hours Before: Thanks for visiting and leaving a comment. Wow! I didn't know anyone from Kenya was following--thanks! I'll come over and check out your blog as well.
Kahless: Thanks, and thanks. I think I may just need to get a new computer...but that's not in the budget right now so making do.
Colleen: Yes, I've worked on asking for what I want and need. Still difficult sometimes but better at it. Thank for hugs and backatcha! :)
Lisa Marie: Yes, I am lucky. He's been through a lot with me. And I'm lucky to have my bloggy buddies supporting me, too! Thanks!
Vicki: I'm trying to best to take care of that little girl inside. You take care of little Vicki, too. And I appreciate those good hugs and energy thoughts, too!
Two Hours Before: Thanks for visiting and leaving a comment. Wow! I didn't know anyone from Kenya was following--thanks! I'll come over and check out your blog as well.
Kahless: Thanks, and thanks. I think I may just need to get a new computer...but that's not in the budget right now so making do.
Colleen: Yes, I've worked on asking for what I want and need. Still difficult sometimes but better at it. Thank for hugs and backatcha! :)
Lisa Marie: Yes, I am lucky. He's been through a lot with me. And I'm lucky to have my bloggy buddies supporting me, too! Thanks!
computers suck but we so need them.
for some reason the pic you had up triggered something not good or bad just something must go away and think about it
for some reason the pic you had up triggered something not good or bad just something must go away and think about it
Update 9/23/09: For some mysterious reason, Firefox started working on my computer again. Yay! I didn't even have to re-install it this time. I also tried a few of the suggestions Mike gave me--thanks, Mike! So, I'm going to make hay while the sun shines. Thanks for not giving up on me during my technical and emotional difficulties, everybody! :)
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