September 05, 2007
Thanks for Your Support!
I'm just trying to take the days step by step and do my best to take care of myself.
I was attempting to comfort myself and my parts the other day. I had noticed, earlier in the day, that someone who had been very kind to me over the phone brought on a crying jag in me. I was wondering about that later and thought, "It's almost as if I don't want to be soothed or comforted. It's almost as if it hurts me. It feels painful." As soon as that thought was out, I heard a part--I think her name is Sarah and she's between six and eight years old. Sarah said, "You're only teasing me. It's just a trick. You'll only hurt me later."
That just broke my heart to hear that coming from such a young child part. Her words spoke volumes.
Blog Carnival Update: When I delayed the BLOG CARNIVAL AGAINST CHILD ABUSE, August edition, I had to stick in a new date and just randomly chose September 14. That's a week from Friday. I'll have to check with Lisa at Sadly Normal and make sure she's okay with that post date.
I want to thank all of you for your e-mails and kind comments during my recent set-back. Your kindness and support mean more to me than you'll ever know or I could ever express in words. Thank you!
I'll be trying my best to get around to some blogs and return some e-mails in the next few days. I miss you guys!
Welcome back !!!!! We missed you and are very happy to see you back again!!
Feel free to call or write if you are so inclined.
peace and blessings
I missed you...we need you as part of our blogging community.
I like your insight about your young part who thought she was being teased when someone is nice to her. I don't like comfort or soothing either. Hmmm.
Yeah, I never really thought about comfort as being perceived as "painful" before. It's a huge concept I'll be working on in therapy.
Wanda: thanks for the safe hugs--right back at ya!
I have never felt very good on anything that's like a tranquilizer. However, I know folks who have high anxiety with the flashbacks, etc. that come with PTSD, and have found relief from them. They just pretty much knock me out. I have better luck with some EFT/TFT techniques and visualizations to feel safe.
I'll keep everybody posted about the new meds I'm on, once I start feeling a real difference with them.
Best wishes and healing to you, anonymous, and your husband. Thanks for the visit and the comment.