March 02, 2010
Allowing Myself To Dream Again
Dream Job: Botanical Illustrator by MarjakaThriver(on break) on Polyvore.com
I am really enjoying it. My T really likes this for me as she says that it really helps me with my level of competency and self-esteem. I agree. It is also so freeing to dream again. For such a long time, I've felt like recovery, healing, therapy--those things were my full-time job. Now, I feel like some of my old talents and skills have returned and I'm enjoying practicing those things. My undergraduate degree is in commercial art. From the beginning--as an art major in college--I wanted to be an illustrator.
But, I also knew I did not want to be a "starving artist." Therefore, I went to work in Chicago in advertising and corporate communications until all hell broke loose. I got married, got laid off, had a baby and started working on my recovery from child abuse.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm coming out of a long nightmare. It feels wonderful to be dreaming again. It feels even better to be working toward making my dream come true! What dreams do you have that you're working on to make reality?
About 10 years ago, I went back to college to take 2 Drawing classes because I have always wanted to take drawing classes. I got an A and a B+ which were both the highest grades that the teacher gave for those two semesters. I loved both classes. The classes also taught me how much I was still wanting to control my world so in addition to following a dream, I found an area that I still needed to work on in my recovery.
i feel like my dreams are currently on hold. my dreams of one day becoming a therapist. while i stay home and raise our daughter while she's still so little. but she won't be little forever :)
so i'm trying to enjoy this part of my life while i have such a meaningful opportunity.
wishing you well~ :)
Now, I am (finally) almost done with the book - I should reach the end in the next month and then I expect it to take about 4 to 6 months to do the final edit...
Its hard to believe I will actually finish it!
I am allowing myself to dream that it will be published.
I also have a degree in art - bachelor of fine arts from the Art Institute in Chicago - and would love to make my art into something more than just what I do for myself... but for now I have to focus my attention a little more and finish one thing before I start another.
kudos to you for taking the next step!
IK: Thanks! xxxxx hugs to you, too! :)
Katie: I'm wishing you well, too. And you're right--they grow up SO fast. I can hardly believe mine just turned 13!
Von: It's never too late to get into drawing. Grandma Moses became a famous painter in her '70's and lived to 101! And there seem to be classes all over the place. Don't give up on it if you really want to do it!
GWITW: It's a good thing to share our dreams, I think. Thanks for dreaming with me and for those hugs. Back at you! xxxx
Colleen: Thanks for sharing in my joy. Hugs and blessings back to you!
Ivory: Nice to "see" you! If it's a secret wish, don't give up on it. One of my current instructors said she can teach anyone how to draw. If I can figure out how to scan in a picture, I will try to get on up some time. Thanks for being interested!
Wow, Shen! I'm from the Chicago area. I BFA from The Art Institute, huh? I'm impressed! And also impressed with the novel. I started one about 20 years ago that I abandoned. Best wishes on the editing and congrats and kudos!
Paula: Hey! Nice to "see" you! I probably won't be able to leave my recovery completely behind--maybe a part-time job--for a while, but it does feel nice to do other things. Hugs to you, too, dear!
I was in a Gestalt training for work and for some reason you kept popping into mind. Haha... maybe my spirit was open to you in that moment..who knows..
Hope you are well my friend. Keep up the wonderful art.
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