September 01, 2010
So, What's Happening?
So, my son did not want to go camping with us this past weekend and that brought up some rejection issues. At first, I started in with a lot of self-loathing and internal name calling like, "goober, loser," etc. Then, I just allowed myself to be sad. That feeling-the-feelings stuff really does help with my dissociation.
With some journaling and therapy "homework," I've come to the conclusion that rejection is a big issue for this "Fall Freak-out" period. Unfortunately, it also involves the actual fear of death if I get out of line. So, my therapy session tomorrow should be a whopper. Send up some prayers, thoughts or vibes, will you? Thanks in advance!
Safe hugs, G.
I know its not always comfortable, but the discomfort of feeling the emotions when they come is a lot shorter lasting than the self loathing and guilt and shame that unnecessarily goes hand and hand with that.
Safe hugs to you my friend and I'm sending out those positive vibes and prayers.
Sarah: Hugs backatcha, deary! I DO feel strong with all this support. Thanks!
Colleen: Thank you so much for those prayers. I still need them a lot this time of year and so appreciate them.
as for being a parent, i was just thinking the other day that one of the challenges for me is learning not to take rejection personally. i think having kiddos can bring up our own inner child issues. maybe whatever age your son is, and him being rejecting, has something to do with something that happened to you when you were his age.
not that i'm an expert :) these are just my thoughts.
i will be thinking of you and sending you peaceful thoughts and vibes and hoping things smooth out for you soon~~~
Katie: Thank you for your thoughtful, kind and compassionate comment, as usual. You rock! And I agree about having kids bringing up our own inner child issues. Totally!
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